Forgive me, I have to quote people with whom my thoughts resonate. Truly how many thoughts originate from ourselves alone? If I am quoting them, they usually mean something to me.
“If you would be a real seeker after truth, it is necessary that at least once in your life you doubt, as far as possible, all things.” (Renè Descartes) I have attempted to do this. My, oh my, how the cards tumble with no foundation.
You question me questioning Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John not being the author of the purported Gospels. If you research this you find they are not and there is no name at all that can be attached as the author. I am not going to point out all of the things about the the Bible that is called the infallible and authoritative Word of God and how it lost its hypnotic power over me. But I will share a few that really sealed the deal.
I do want to interject that my goal is not to turn people from Christianity or the bible. The Bible doesn’t say half the things that people make it say. In the lyrical verse of The Red Hot Chili Peppers’ 21st Century, “Read me a scripture and I will twist it.”
That aside, if you just take the first 5 books of the Old Testament and ask who wrote it, everyone assumes it was Moses. The events at the ending of the book of Genesis occurred three hundred and something years before Moses was supposed to have been born. Dueteronomy 34:6 states “…So Moses the servant of the LORD died there in the land of Moab, according to the word of the LORD. 6And He buried him in the valley in the land of Moab, opposite Beth-peor; but no man knows his burial place to this day.” If Moses was the author how does he write this? Also, who speaks in third person while writing about themselves? It can and could have been written this way, but if Moses was writing in third person, if truly “Moses was very meek, above all men which were on the face of the earth” (Numbers 12:3) his meekness now comes into question by declaring it.
With that said, there are some questions if Moses was not the author. If he isn’t who is? Nobody knows. For me, in agreement with Thomas Paine, “if the Bible be not true, or the truth of be doubtful, it ceases to have authority over anything.”
As far as it seeming like I am attacking Christianity and why not the other religions, Christianity is the religion that was instilled in my being since I was born. I still live in a town where people like to put signs in their front yard that say JESUS. That is great. There are churches on every corner. Most everyone I know is most likely a “born again” Christian. There is some built in fear to keep one from questioning and even more so to abandon a belief system that has been ingrained in them since birth and is the predominate thinking in the culture they live. I find people really don’t like it if you talk about disbelieving what they believe and why you don’t, even if they ask. The most fanatical are usually the ones that know the least about the subject they are talking about. Most people as so sure that they know the Truth because the Bible says it is. (How many of these people have ever really examined any of their beliefs, why they believe them, and if they are even true or make sense?) And getting to what you were saying about the other religions, they also believe their book to be the divine and infallible Word of God, hence the reason people are cutting heads off.
Or is it, could it possibly be, a power play, political, empirical reason. (The wealthiest institution in the world is the Vatican. Could there be some kind of connection to religion and their grasp in power?) Had Hitler preached his Mein Kampf being a direct revelation from God he may have gotten a lot further. (I could spare you the quotes from others and just plagiarize, but most of the time it is clearer than I could say.) “Each of those churches show certain books, which they call revelation, or the word of God. The Jews say, that their word of God was given by God to Moses, face to face; the Christians say, that their word of God came by divine inspiration: and the Turks say, that their word of God (the Koran) was brought by an angel from Heaven. Each of those churches accuse the other of unbelief; and for my own part, I disbelieve them all.” (Paine 1794)
I disbelieve them all. I disbelieve that the future of my soul rests in “accepting Jesus as my savior”. If I don’t believe in Original Sin, or Hell, I don’t need a savior. “To anyone who’s listening, you’re not born into sin. The guilt they try and give you, puke it in the nearest bin.” – Red Hot Chili Peppers, Shallow Be Thy Name
I was created by God, supposably in His image, and if I can have, feel, and, be Love, Peace, and Joy, am I cut off from the creator? I don’t think it is possible. The only way I would think or believe so is if I believe what others want me to believe because that is what they have been taught to believe and to preach, “unto the ends of the earth”.
It truly is an incredible thing to have ones’ mother call them a “Stupid Fuck” because I doubt Jesus existed, and if he did, to doubt he was crucified, and even more so, to deny a resurrection by him. I must clarify that my mother states she did not call me a Stupid Fuck, and I quote “I said, I wish I could call you a Stupid Fuck!” That conversation could be compared to most of the scriptures in the Bible because now we need multiple translations, commentaries, perhaps some sermons to help get to the heart of what is being said, every “jot or tittle”. I think not.
Speaking of denying a resurrection, the Gospel of Mark: “He (Mark) has no account of the virgin birth of Jesus–or for that matter, any birth of Jesus at all. In fact, Joseph, husband of Mary, is never named in Mark’s Gospel at all–and Jesus is called a “son of Mary”. But even more significant is Mark’s strange ending. He has no appearances of Jesus following the visit of the women on Easter morning to the empty tomb! – James Tabor, The “Strange” Ending of the Gospel of Mark and Why It Makes All the Difference
My father doesn’t really know what to say, but in a more Christ like manner, he says that he appreciates my curiosity. Most of the rest of my family tries to refrain from talking to me. I share this with you to let you know it isn’t a fun thing that I am doing, seeking truth, but it is my passion, next to sex with my wife. I do not deny these things for attention. The foundation of the supposed truths in which I have grown up in, or been brain washed in, or magnetized in, has crumbled and lost its power.
You ask where I stand, what do I believe? I believe that there is ONE. One God. One creation – evolving, devolving, inhaling, exhaling. In the words of Isaiah, “I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the Lord do all these things.” – Isaiah 45:7 (King James Version) If you take this for real, there is not an opposite evil power. I share this quote, because it cannot be said better, “The “Supreme,” if IT is infinite and omnipresent cannot be anything but that. IT must be “good and evil,” “light and darkness,” etc., for if it is omnipresent it has to be present in a vessel of dishonour as well as in one of honour, in an atom of dirt as in the atom of the purest essence. The whole trouble is that theology and the clergy are not consistent in their claims they would force people to believe in an infinite and absolute deity, and dwarf this deity at the same time by making of it a personal being with attributes, a double claim mutually destructive, and as absurd philosophically, as it is grotesque and soul-killing. The fact then that showing good and evil intermingled in the deity creates “religious difficulty,” i.e., “theological confusion,” is the fault of and rests with the clergy and theology. Let them drop their idea of a personal god with human attributes, and the difficulty will disappear.” – Helena Blavatsky
I restate, I believe in one “God” Supreme, all that is, all that isn’t. I would not exist without this supremeness, nor would you. So if we cut through the rigamarole of the original sin, being saved by “accepting”, or believing, or being baptized, or eating his flesh and drinking his blood, or hating our mother and father, or whatever way to enter the kingdom, accepting that the son that had to be murdered for our salvation to bring us back into oneness with the Father again through Jesus Christ. Lets look at math, of which I was not great at. If you divide the whole into however many pieces, you still have the whole thing. Unless you bring in theologians, commentaries, priests, and translations and use “funny math”.
I am quite sure I am leaving my self vulnerable to much argument by not putting all the reasons I do not believe the Bible to be the Word of God, nor any book written claiming to be a revelation from God. I do not think my soul needs saving. I definetly do not think God would hinge the eternal “decision” of my soul (heaven or hell) to be a written book that no one can authoritatively say who wrote it, except for saying it was written by God. Therefore I don’t not believe it. I make Jim Morrison’s words my own by saying, “Cancel my subscription to the resurrection.”
You are not sure how I am going to spin things like rape and molestation? I have learned that good thinking comes with better questioning. Let us ask how millions of theologians spin things like rape and molestation from the divine Word of God in the Old Testament. Or better yet, I will just put what is claimed to be an act done by men that is permissible and has been recorded and preserved for us in the proclaimed “Infallible Word of God”. “And Moses said to them, “Have you spared all the women? 16 “Behold, these caused the sons of Israel, through the counsel of Balaam, to trespass against the Lord in the matter of Peor, so the plague was among the congregation of the Lord. 17 “Now therefore, kill every male among the little ones, and kill every woman who has known man intimately. 18 “But all the girls who have not known man intimately, spare for yourselves,” (Numbers 31:15-18). I am quite sure I would be told from theologians that “spare for yourselves” has some holy meaning that doesn’t pertain to anything sexual, but the way I read it, and I point out it is says girls in every translation, that they were molested and raped. Unless, God changed these “girls” hearts and caused them to desire these men of God, who are probably now better off because once the New Testament is written and hell comes into play that through their new rapists, I mean husbands, can bring them into the glorious eternal Kingdom of the Father through marriage. Thank God those young girls’ mothers that caused the sons of Isreal, through the counsel of Balaam, to trespass against the Lord and cause a plague among the congregation of the Lord. Had they not, they would not have had their infant siblings and mothers and fathers be slaughtered by the sword, and been allowed to be pillaged, they would have ended up in eternal damnation. Hallelujah! Praise the Lord.
Oh, the genealogies of Christ in Matthew (1 : 1-16) and Luke (3 : 23-38) do not match. Only two match and a couple resemble each other. People argue one is Mary’s lineage and the other is Joseph’s lineage. Why doesn’t it say this anywhere in the Bible? Why do we have to do so much research to really not find out anything except something to disagree over? An even better question is why do we need Joseph’s lineage at all?!!! Didn’t the Holy Spirit come upon her, and the power of the Most High overshadow her? Why not just list what is said to be Mary’s lineage and then list Yahweh for the other?
Taking the first precept from Descartes, there is enough there to cause me to have way more than a single doubt, I do not accept it as true.